I Struggle

When I was asked to write something for this website, I readily agreed. I’m rarely at a loss for opinions and I’m usually able to easily express my ideas in writing. I thought this would be a simple exercise and a way for me to contribute something useful without having to expend a lot of effort. When it came time for me to go to work on the post, however, I struggled.

Days turned to weeks and I couldn’t even start putting words down. I struggled finding the time in my schedule to dedicate to writing. When I made the time, I struggled to decide what topic to use. When I picked a topic and began study and research, I struggled to focus and found myself moving from one study to another and back again. It finally dawned on me that I had been shown my topic all along. The process of getting to this one idea for this one post captured so much of what I face daily. Struggle.

I see the world we live in today and I struggle to trust and love my fellow man. I watch the news and see mass shootings, suicide bombings, neglect, and abuse. I see people taking advantage of those who are weak. I struggle with my beliefs when I see what seems to be so many acting in contrast to what I think should be so simple.

I struggle daily with temptation on many levels. Often times it seems so much easier to just give in. I struggle trying to reason with myself to do something, or not do something. I even struggle with the thought of why these things are a struggle to begin with.

I struggle with my relationships with my family and friends. I struggle not to get over-focused on my daily responsibilities so much that I forget to check in with or reach out to those that I love and who love me.

I struggle with my faith and commitment to God. I struggle making the time to study. I struggle continuing to pray. I struggle with giving all of these struggles over to God and asking for help instead of trying to control everything myself.

Why keep struggling? I struggle knowing there is respite and reward. “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” (Romans 8:18)

Why does God allow us to struggle in the first place? It is the struggle that increases our strength and Christ’s strength in us. “Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:8-10)

If you have read this far, I am guessing you struggle too. We may struggle with different things, but the fight is the same. Take comfort knowing that it is the struggles that we face and overcome that make us stronger. Know that you are not alone. Know that you are loved. Know there is rest.

“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” (Revelation 21:4)